教育局第N個口號：「求學不是求分數」。

真膚淺﹗

又一口號與政策不一致的宣傳﹗

而我可是從一而終，求學求知識，但更求分數。

這亦是膚淺﹗

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今日收到一個令人鼓舞的消息﹗﹗

第一個A已拿到手﹗(科目：SOCIAL PSY)

「革命嘗未成功，同志仍雖努力﹗」

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這陣子，朋友身邊的親人都患嚴重的疾病。

無論心靈或身體都是痛苦的﹗

在功課繁重下，還要為此擔憂；

可真是一件令人沮喪和苦惱的事﹗

雖然他們已有了心理準備，亦把事情看得很透﹗

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很幸運地，從小至今仍未接觸或接近生與死的事情﹗

可是，...不知為何﹗？

對生命，我真的很想知道得多一些深一點﹗

聽人說，臨死時，人和靈魂會分離。

亦有人說過，死後要通過一道門。

更有人說，死後的世界分了天堂與地獄或七層地獄...etc.

以上有些現象，很久以前在書上看過，

但竟都在鋼之練金術上出現。

這才喚起我的回憶。

很有趣﹗=]

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跟其他朋友談天時﹗

自己發現自己這個sem有所改變了﹗

因自我良好感覺...

但她和她可不是呢﹗

非常明白她和她的感覺﹗

求學確實不是求分數﹗

有些東西，比分數更重要﹗

自我肯定。

自我感覺良好。

這令我對這個sem and 下一個sem都有了方向。

好﹗

Shit!

Why do i under bad mood??

No, I am not under bad mood but

I am angry with my physical state right now!

Different kinds of strange sicknesses appear and have caused

 so many pain, sores and side effects.

What kinds of strange illnesses do i suffer from?

My jaw, saliva glands, shoulders and brain are full of pain...SHIT!>.<

Insomia

I always think I won't have insomia.

Why do i always sleep late which is my own choice!!!(watching Movie!^u^)

since i fell asleep easily when my body touch the comfortable bed!^^

But I really cannot fall asleep recently!=.=

Sleep = close my eyes!

Then, still...keep aware to the environment!!

It is difficult to tell anyone since some of these sicknesses are not common..

So, I should keep focus...on the assignments.

Otherwise, the uncomfortable feeling realy drives me to crazinness!!!!

^%&^*(*^$#%^&*()(*&^%$^&*()#!#

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Office ladies get angry with my box which gives so many inspiration to me!

What will I response to my boss' and senior colleges'

unreasonable and irrational requests and orders??

What is my feelinfs towards the cold and self-interested relationship??

This is reality.

A cruel, realistic and materialistic reality.

Who constructs it?

I ask my tutor.

He cannot answer me.

Actually, i think no one can answer this question since no one can prove

the world we experience is the real world or imaginative world.

No, no one can tell even God who has been to

be a controversial actor/ character on the "real world stage".

When we cannot answer this question which reaults in

some scholars/ authorities...etc come out and remind us that

"We should live at that moment."

I buy it but i still ask for the answer or study it.

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Pain = true feeling or not??

I don't know but I definitely can feel it right now.

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ShiT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the best language to express the pain....

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終於完成了第一個的PRESENTATION!

FELT GOOD and SATISFIED!

小插曲~~自己喪笑了﹗

(個下笑，是因為覺得自己好滑稽﹗^皿^!!班上的男孩笑了﹗

我便喪笑了﹗﹗﹗)

現在想起，也想笑﹗哈哈哈...

雖然這次PRESENT不差，但仍有不少可以進步的空間﹗

「加油﹗」

嗯....